Angel

I have two angel in my life so far, one is my dearest wife, the other one is my lovely daughter Aira, and my mom, my guardian angel :), life is not easy i know, i keep writing about life every since i made this blog, cause i know, not only me, but every human being have their own problems in life, mine is something that i can't tell you here.

But my intention in making this blog is to tell the world that you are not alone, every time you turn yourself to a corner, you will find a new obstacle, but if you don't turn, you will hit and stuck right there, and you are a dead human.

God knows everything, i know exactly what god's will for my life, but so far, i know, my life is meaningful and i have someone who look up for my love, loves that timeless, love that only for me, an unconditional love, i have these angels that give me strength in this world, and you know very well, i love you so much, i'm willing to trade anything to put that smiles on your faces, thank you honey.

"Angel"

Spend all your time waiting

for that second chance

for a break that would make it okay

there's always some reason

to feel not good enough

and it's hard at the end of the day

I need some distraction

oh beautiful release

memories seep from my veins

let me be empty

and weightless and maybe

I'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of the angel

fly away from here

from this dark cold hotel room

and the endlessness that you fear

you are pulled from the wreckage

of your silent reverie

you're in the arms of the angel

may you find some comfort here

so tired of the straight line

and everywhere you turn

there's vultures and thieves at your back

and the storm keeps on twisting

you keep on building the lies

that you make up for all that you lack

it don't make no difference

escaping one last time

it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh

this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of the angel

fly away from here

from this dark cold hotel room

and the endlessness that you fear

you are pulled from the wreckage

of your silent reverie

you're in the arms of the angel

may you find some comfort here

you're in the arms of the angel

may you find some comfort here

Lets start the day with SMILE

Aquarius Outlook 2012

Looks good on title, hope it's look good on the main post, hehehe, i got this horoscope outlook trough Yahoo, and since i was born in 16 of February, so i classified myself as an aquarian :), so here is the outlook :

Year 2012 Career

This promises to be a stellar career year for Aquarius - your star is clearly rising! You've been in a bit of a gestation period for the past few years, but now you're getting ready to unveil your genius. Though 2011 may have felt like a bit of a stalemate for you, you'll soon realize that you were simply collecting experiences, ideas and dreams that will all be put to good creative use this year. Saturn will be sitting strong at the zenith of your chart for the next few years beginning in October. Under Saturn's tutelage in your career house, you'll be applying the proper focus, discipline and follow-through necessary to make things happen. Your time has come!

While Mars is retrograde until April, you may still be holding your cards closer to your vest as the incubation period continues. But with Mars powering up your sector of resources and other people's money for such an extended period (the first six months of the year), you should have no trouble asking people for backing you might need to get your larger-than-life plans off the ground. You'll be highly resourceful during the first half of 2012, so take advantage of your innate networking skills - they will most definitely pay the bills!

Come springtime, your projects will go off the charts. November's total new Moon solar eclipse in Scorpio will further trigger amazing events in your career house over the latter part of 2012. Themes of death and rebirth - as well as a total transformation of how you approach your career - are certain to emerge, and you'll be required to possess much more power in your chosen field. Do you see yourself as a key player, a leader and a pioneer? Hopefully so, because you're about to be called upon to step into the biggest shoes of your life. No playing small! This is your year to see and be seen, Aquarius.

Year 2012 Romantic

Your romantic sector can expect plenty of planetary action in 2012, bringing an abundant supply of love and pleasure. Venus will be visiting this corner of your chart for an extended stay between April and August. During Venus's retrograde period between May and June, you may enter a period of reflection and reconsideration over recent romantic developments; you may also encounter unexpected reunions with lovers from your past. In any case, you'll be revisiting sweet memories of love to remind you where you've come from - and help direct you where your love life is going!

The new Moon solar eclipse in mid May will make a strong imprint on the love sector of your horoscope for the duration of the year. The effects of the eclipse will be revealed as an unfolding of events during 2012's second half, all having to do with romantic matters. Current relationships could develop quite quickly, causing a bit of a whirlwind in your heart. When Jupiter joins your love house in June, this will only amplify the power-of-love theme.

Although you often pride yourself on being rather detached and objective, you could find yourself swept up in the drug of love before 2012 is finished with you. But with two of the most benefic planets blessing the romantic house of your horoscope during the second half of 2012, how can you go wrong? Enjoy your fate as a hopeless romantic without having to suffer the tragedy of unrequited love. If anything, you'll be the one turning down offers!

The conclusion is : I don't believe this outlook at all actually, but if it is positives, it gives me a great boost to mylife a year ahead i supposed. So, how bout yours?, just check it trough Yahoo Horoscopes, have fun and enjoy!

2012 Resolution

I only have one-thing i want to focus on is my attitude, i just wanna be wiser and patient in facing life and i don't wanna get in to rush like i did in 2011. I praise you Allah for giving me this gift, i  love you, thank you for another year you giving me, i wish i can be a better moslem, a better husband, a better man, a better son, and most importantly be a better human.

Bruno Mars : Talking to The Moon

I know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away

I want you back

I want you back

My neighbors think

I'm crazy

But they don't understand

You're all I have

You're all I have

Chorus:

At night when the stars

light up my room

I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon

Try to get to You

In hopes you're on

the other side

Talking to me too

Or am I a fool

who sits alone

Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous

The talk of the town

They say

I've gone mad

Yeah

I've gone mad

But they don't know

what I know

Cause when the

sun goes down

someone's talking back

Yeah

They're talking back

At night when the stars

light up my room

I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon

Try to get to You

In hopes you're on

the other side

Talking to me too

Or am I a fool

who sits alone

Talking to the moon

Ahh Ahh,

Ahh Ahh,

Do you ever hear me calling?

Cause every night 

I'm talking to the moon

Still trying to get to you

In hopes you're on

the other side

Talking to me too

Or am I a fool

who sits alone

Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away

Pembicaraan suatu hari dengan istri

Suatu waktu saya sedang ada denes ke luar kota tepatnya Bandung

I    : Papa, mama bakal kangen banget deh nih, papa lama juga lagi di Bandung, baru juga pulang dari Bali

A  : iya ma, sama nih, belum jg *ehmmm ehmmm (gak mau sebut ah) udah gak ketemu lagi ya

I   : lagian papap napa ikut2 sih ke Bandung?

A  : Tw neh, ada kerjaan mau nge rekrut orang buat riset Bandung

I   : oooooo, pantesss, ya udah deh ah, nnt lagi ya ngobrolnya, mama mau siap2 ke kantor, mau dandan dulu

A  : ok mam, jgn lupa pake Alis ya, entar disangka Kunti loh *wuiiiinngg Kabooorrr

I   : selepeeeetttt neh

setelah beberapa saat dari pembicaraan diatas, gak lama2 jg sih, paling 5 menit.......................

I  : Papaaaaaa......papaaaaaaaa....yeuuuhhh tedor ye pasti (asal gobleg)

A : tedor gimana, org nyetir, mama neh, aya naon mah?

I  : Rol rambut mama kebawaa dimobilllllllll !!!!!!!

A : wkowkowkowkokwow, mana papa tw, lagian tadi gak ngecek2

I  : aaahh papap bolen dasar, suweeekk

A : maap ma, lagian gak di cek2 dulu, papa mana tw

I  : aaah tw ah, ya udah pake rol rambut Aira dulu deh

A :bzbzbzbzbbzbz *speechless

Be a good parents or forget about MARRIAGE

I have getting married for 4 years in running, since six of july 2008, we have been together trough everthing that could happen in a young couple like us, but we manage to trough it all with love and sincerity. Back to five years ago when i'm still single, I've seen a lot of what is marriage was, sometimes i even asked friends or family who has got married about it, what it feel like when you have got married? is it feels good? i bet it good, you never feel lonely, you have someone to look up to, you have a reason to live, you have your time wasted for something useful, then she said " not as smooth as what you have seen, it is about struggle and surrender, two different person, different gender, different background of life has been put together under the same roof to be living together ever after, you have no idea that you have chose the right person or not, your couple will give what you have dream and desire for, you both will love forever, it is hard. Then i asked her again " but you have made this far, then you have succeeding in making a great relationship cause i believe love will find the way, then she told me " We have children to raised for, the center of view is not on us anymore, but on our children, our son and daughter, and they makes our loves stronger everyday, we sees a beautiful eyes, smiling faces, hugs and even kisses from them, believe me, if you survive as a couple during the beginning of your marriage before you have a child, but i know it's going to be very hard, but after you have your first child, you will know, what life you should be running for, you have a reason to live, you have a reason why you work so hard, you have someone who is waiting for your kisses and hugs, and they love it.

Relieving for me since that day i was planning my marriage to be held soon, but my marriage is not that hard though, our three years of marriage when we did not have Aira yet was still lovely, we can accept our diffrences, we know what marriage is and the reason to tie a knot togehter back in three years ago, but yes, after Aira was born, our small family life is getting much much better, we put full attention to her, no matter how exhausted we are, no matter we needs like some kind of vacation as a couple, cause we don't get any honeymoon yet after married though, but it is ok, everyday is a blessing to us, everyday is heaven in life indeed.

But i have read a lot of news, stories, about marriage that is not working and even end up in divorces even after the have a child, it's like hell for me, i can even imagine a daughter who seen her parents split in, fighting, shouting, she don't even have a friend to talk with, sad right. You don't realize how much you have neglected those kids, they watch TV alone, while their mom is busy with her routine, and her daddy is out of nowhere, she looks like don't understand yet what had happened, but believe me, her heart is crying, she must have thinking "this is not what i dreams of life was".

Her parents never took the young girl to churchNever spoke of His name never read her His wordTwo non-believers walking lost in this worldTook their baby with them, what a sad little girl

Her daddy drank all day and mommy did drugsNever wanted to play or give kisses and hugsShe'd watch the TV and sit there on the couchWhile her mom fell asleep and her daddy went out

And the drinking and the fightingJust got worse every nightBehind their couch she'd be hidingOh what a sad little life

And like it always does the bad just got worseWith every slap and every curseUntil her daddy in a drunk rage one nightUsed a gun on her mom and then took his life

And some people from the cityTook the girl far awayTo a new mom and a new dadKisses and hugs everyday

Her first day of Sunday school the teacher walked inAnd a small little girl stared at a picture of HimShe said, “I know that Man up there on that crossI don't know His name but I know He got off”

'Cause He was there in my old houseHe held me close to His sideAs I hid there behind our couchThe night that my parents died

Read that lyrics, sad, soo sad, i can feel how that litlle girl feel breakdown and she knew very well of life she would wanted, not that life, she would willing to trade her life just to feel a day of joy and happiness, a joy of living with her parents, she even hoping just to get a kiss or a hug.

So parents or parents wannabe, prepare yourself, marriage is not easy but yet not that hard, if you have children in your marriage please remember how bad they wanted to get love from you both, and husband and wife, and to every couple out there, be patience in life, take one step at a time, don't get in rush, i'm wishing you all the best for your marriage and your future marriage, be a great parent.
Love is not such take and give thing, love is when you are not expecting people to love you the way you love them, don't expect them to do the way you like, but do what they love instead, love is about giving and caring, if you said you love someone, then accept them the way they be, and be grateful to god always, then you will find peace and happiness in your life.
To my wife and my angel Aira, Daddy loves you, i'm willing to do anything to put that smiles on you both everyday always. :)